AirySheep

I have been drawing a lot but not posting much because I'm lazy and my dad stocks me on DA. Now I cant post anything weird or enjoyable for me to draw... ugh, if I can get his off of  my page you can expect more art from my sketchbooks and fan art.

also ive been doing a comic during my free time off of the drawing tablet. I need to buy a scanner but I need a good one so you can read my hand writing. it gets really small in some areas.

Thanks to everyone who has stayed with me this long.

    I'm sorry for not posting recently, it been hard because of school so I'll be posting more soon!!!!
  

I'm sorry I haven't been posting anything lately and I didn't tell you guy about my situation. I will get more art up and I will try my best to my you all happy.

i started school recently and things are going well. It's a high school for art and I have been doing hard work to make all my teachers love me.

art will be hard to post considering I get homework every day. There will be incoming art for the fem dmmd videos so please be patient.

i love you all and thanks for the support!

This is not going to be long but hear me out.

my father thought it would be a great idea to do a last minute vacation to a place called Lake Goerge. Along with this idea that he has now put in motion I can't bring anything that will distract me from family time. This consits of electronics, drawing books, toys, and homework. Everything was fine until he said homework. Even though this is summer vacation I still have homework, but my father neglects to remember that I have a reputation to uphold so he does this shit.

the problems with his ideas. 

#1- I always wait last minute or the day of to do everything I did do so planing a trip last minute is not so smart.

#2- I'm bring a book, not a computer so it's not that big of a deal. (Mostly I read at night so it won't effect "family time")

#3- my iPad can't function without connection so why can't I listen to music on the way there and use it to take pictures.

#4- I can't bring the phone I never use for anything (I hate phones) so I can contact my mom.

these are the very logical things my father and step mother put together. I can say I'm not going but then my dad will kill me and give me "The Talk" so then he forces me to go so I can escape the stupidness of this trip.

ill be back in a week and I'll write another journal upon my return. Until then enjoy life.

Over the recent months I have been chought up in a lot of homework assigned by my high school and as the time frame to get the work done shortens I have been getting more stressed. I had a solution to this delelmea, look at art by your senpai. Most of the time this helps with me thinking that mane one day I (or anyone in that matter) can be up to par with them, until you find out that one of them is your age....

the only reason why I brought this up is because it happens to everyone. For example, your sitting in your classroom and you are known to do good art, but when the new student comes in and does art better all the sudden your left in the back of the class while everyone is gathering around the new kid drawing.
this is only an example but you can get your confidence shot down in a second.
     This aplies to DA too. Recently I was refreasing the home page over and over again to calm to nerves of school and I saw a beautiful picture drawn by a deviant that goes by the name chewsome. I clicked on the image, left a comment (because comments my people feel good) and added the image to my favorites. In response to the comment I left I was being questioned if I really did like the picture. Responding back I put it in a way I would like to hear " If anyone thought it wasn't good they need to take a closer look". I meant what I said, truly I do, but after adding her to my favorites and one livestream later I realized that to her I'm probably another creepy fan. One of the reasons why I like her art is because even though we are the same age (the age 14) I would look up to her as a superior and not an equal because she is better.

this is when I thought that all you had to do is say "hi" and hope the conversation will flow on. It never works like that and it never will. Even if I were to say hi again or ask "how's it going" she'll enevitable get weirded out and block me. I don't want things to get like that so I just watch and comment went words are needed. Then again there is a part of me the wants people to leave one hunderd comments say this is amazing and I would love to have people ask hey can you give me advice. But what do I know. We can't all be friend, know matter how much I want to be with everyone on DA there will be no one who cares at all.

please check out chewsome's page on DA, i think she is an amazing artist and person. And if you want to leave a note saying hi I would be so happy (it would make my day.) thanks for listening to the rant.